Sarah Nurse, My Words, women's hockey

Finding My Voice

By Sarah Nurse, Women's Hockey '17

There was a time when I never thought I’d say this, but I got more out of my time at Wisconsin doing other things than I did out of my career with the women’s hockey team.

From 2013 to ’17, we won five Western Collegiate Hockey Association championships — three playoff and two regular-season titles — and played in four straight NCAA Frozen Fours. I had the good fortune to win some awards and finish among the top 15 scorers in program history. I expanded my game to the degree that I was an All-American forward and was chosen to play for Team Canada in the 2018 Winter Olympics. Many of my Badgers teammates have become cherished friends and the memories we have of battles won and lost remain vivid to this day.

But even though I play pro hockey now as an independent member of the Professional Women’s Hockey Players Association and have my sights set on another Olympic opportunity in 2022, my time in Madison set me up for much more than being an athlete and scoring goals.

Mellissa Channell, Sarah Nurse, Jenny Ryan, Sydney McKibbon, Ann-RenŽe Desbiens, Mikayla Johnson

I graduated from the UW School of Business in 2018, where I learned the value of public speaking and cultivating personal relationships.

Thanks to some of my fellow Black student-athletes, I also found my voice in the ongoing dialogue about equity and equality among races and genders. 

I’m especially passionate about those topics as they relate to inclusion, women and hockey.

I wouldn’t say I’m an activist, but I aspire to be one. I see the work, the time, the effort and the intensity that so many people have put into fighting for causes they believe in. 

I’m trying to do my best to bring awareness and advocate for things that I’m passionate about, but I wouldn’t throw that term around lightly. I think being seen as an activist is a compliment, something to be revered. But there’s a lot of diligence involved.

This is my north star: Sport has power because it brings so many people joy. Everyone should be able to enjoy it regardless of what they look like or where they come from or what they were born with.

This is my north star: Sport has power because it brings so many people joy. Everyone should be able to enjoy it regardless of what they look like or where they come from or what they were born with.
Sarah Nurse

During my time at Wisconsin, I was able to meet a lot of cool people, a lot of inspiring people who were unapologetically themselves and weren’t afraid to use their voices. I was friends with Nigel Hayes, a captain with men’s basketball, and Dare Ogunbowale, a football captain. They’re both very passionate about seeing change in society and having conversations with people like that really helped inspire me.

Looking back on those four years at UW, I don’t think I had found my voice just yet. I remember certain things that I wish that I would have done and said, maybe to help educate my teammates because I know that they went to battle for me and I have strong relationships with them. I know they never meant any harm or to be malicious at all, but I think that there were times where I could have opened their eyes to certain things.

Nigel Hayes and Sarah Nurse - UW graduation
UW Graduation with my friend Nigel Hayes
Sarah Nurse - LaBahn Arena with her jersey - UW Graduation
Holding my jersey inside LaBahn Arena for UW Graduation
Sarah Nurse - 16 September 23 St. Cloud State University and University of Wisconsin meet in WCHA game at the Herb Brooks National Hockey Center in S. Cloud ,Minnesota

Here’s an example: One of the first times I was on campus, we were in the locker room and one of my teammates was talking about me and we were all kind of chatting with each other. One of the girls looked at me and was like, “Nursey can do your hair.” They were talking about cornrows. I said, “I don’t know how to do cornrows. I can’t do that.” Well, it launched into this whole discussion and debate. “How can you not do cornrows? You’re this Black person.”

Knowing my teammates, knowing these people, there wasn’t malicious intent there at all. But at a time where you’re struggling a little bit with your racial identity, things like that kind of hurt. I didn’t feel very comfortable in that situation. You’re a young player coming in to a new environment, so you’re not going to say much. Looking back, I could have helped educate some important people in my life.

Reflecting back on it now, I wonder what I would’ve have said? I think I would have tried to explain to them that some instances of racism — like someone calling you a derogatory term — are overt and some are not even apparent. Sometimes they’re even meant as a compliment. But they’re not.

It’s like someone looking at a Black person and saying, “I can’t believe you speak so eloquently.” And it’s like, “Why can’t you believe that I speak so eloquently? I know that you’re trying to give me props because you think I’m well-spoken, but why don’t you think I have the capabilities to do that?”

When I was at Wisconsin I heard people say many times that they’re color blind, that they don’t see black, white, red or brown skin. I believe it’s very important to acknowledge the Black experience. If you’re saying you’re color blind, I think you’re diminishing that experience.

Any discussion about Black History Month makes me think of my dad, Roger. Growing up in Hamilton, Ontario, with my brothers Elijah and Isaac, Black history was not taught in schools, so my father took it upon himself to enlighten us. Not just in February, either, but throughout the year. He made us understand where we came from. He had us read books. He made us appreciate the impact of people like Angela Davis, Dr. Martin Luther King, Jr., Malcolm X and Rosa Parks in the U.S. and Canadians like Lincoln Alexander, the first Black member of parliament, and Viola Desmond, who staged a Parks-like protest in a white-only section of a theater.

That exposure and insight helps me appreciate the fact that women are at a cultural crossroads in the sport that I love. There’s a huge cry in hockey for racial inclusion for men and women, but if you take a step back, you see there’s also inequality for women. Both are on the same plane and we have to look at how they intersect.

Growing up, I didn’t have a traditional role model other than my parents. There was no visibility for women in hockey, let alone Black women. There was no one who made me say, “I want to be like her. If she can do it, I can do it, too.”

Wisconsin Badgers Sarah Nurse (16) with her family on Senior Day prior to an NCAA women's hockey game game against the Minnesota Duluth Bulldogs Sunday, February 12, 2017, in Madison, Wis. (Photo by David Stluka)
Growing up, I didn’t have a traditional role model other than my parents. There was no visibility for women in hockey, let alone Black women. There was no one who made me say, “I want to be like her. If she can do it, I can do it, too.”
Sarah Nurse
Sarah Nurse with her Barbie Doll - There are two Tim Hortons Hockey Barbie dolls to choose from, which come with a Tim Hortons hockey jersey, helmet, hockey stick, a doll stand and Certificate of Authenticity. The Tim Hortons Hockey Barbie makes a great gift for collectors and kids aged six years and up and sells for $29.99. (CNW Group/Tim Hortons)

What inspires me is giving the next generation of little girls somebody to look to. I’m not saying that I’ll inspire everyone, but I want to be a visible figure for someone who looks like me who can think, “If she can do it, so can I.”

That’s why it’s such an honor to have inspired a Barbie Doll, one with brown skin who plays hockey. Tim Hortons and Mattel joined forces in a “You Can Be Anything” campaign, creating two dolls dressed in red jerseys, skates and helmets that were revealed last year. The other doll depicts my Olympic gold medal-winning teammate Marie-Philip Poulin, who is white.   

I can’t tell you how meaningful this is for me.

I loved Barbie Dolls when I was little. I got one every Christmas growing up. I had a Barbie car and all the accessories. 

Looking back, I never had a Barbie that was athletic or anything like that. I remember that being girly and having Barbie Dolls and wearing dresses wasn’t cool, especially if you’re an athletics-type of girl. That was a part of me that sometimes I had to hide because I wanted to be this really good hockey player. 

If there had been a Barbie hockey player, it would have blown my mind. The fact there’s a Black hockey-playing Barbie Doll now, it’s incredible. It’s the first of its kind and hearing stories and talking to people who were able to get the Barbie, it’s been very inspiring for young girls to see. That’s so important to me because it’s giving people the message that if I look like this, I can do this.

I have a life that encompasses a lot of things. My full-time job these days is a hockey player. I’m in the gym training every day and skating as much as I can. I also do broadcast analysis for NHL games, speaking engagements, as well as serve on the board of the PWHPA and the NHL Player Inclusion Committee.

I recently had the privilege of taking part in a virtual panel discussion about race with classrooms across Canada. Canadian Prime Minister Justin Trudeau and Willie O’Ree, the first Black to play in the NHL, were involved as well.

I make time to keep tabs on what’s going on with the student-athletes in Madison. I think the work they’re doing now is absolutely incredible, especially with what went on this past summer involving George Floyd and Breonna Taylor. I think the work that’s been put in is awesome, but we still definitely have a long way to go because racial inequality happens every single day.

I’ve always made it a point to say that I don’t speak on behalf of the Black experience or any other Black person in the world. I only speak from what I’ve done, what I’ve felt and what I’ve seen. I think that’s important to note. One person can’t really speak on behalf of an entire population. I just want to share my experiences because I think they’re important for these racial conversations going forward.

My time at Wisconsin has kind of set me up for what I’m doing now. I was able to go, do my thing, be consistent in my sport and academics, and graduate. It all prepared me for being closer to the front lines of social change. The more I grow and mature, the more I’m able to appreciate so much more the relationships and what I was able to learn.

Being an athlete at Wisconsin taught me a lot, but I look forward to the education I received long after my hockey career is done.

Sarah Nurse scores a goal against Minnesota Duluth - 5 Mar 17:  The University of Wisconsin Badgers play against the University of Minnesota Duluth Bulldogs in the 2017 WCHA Final Face-Off Championship Game at Ridder Arena in Minneapolis, MN.
Being an athlete at Wisconsin taught me a lot, but I look forward to the education I received long after my hockey career is done.
Sarah Nurse
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